yhia - caramel ivy Lyrics

I been thinking too much lately
About how I don't matter at all
After every rise, there always comes a fall
And I'm never prepared for it at all
Everyone I love I always disappoint
I'm supposed to be a man, but I act like a boy
I hate emotions, so I always fill the void
You broke my heart
And I'm just 'spose to act like it ain't happen at all
All these problems I just avoid
Always too overwhelmed to enjoy anything
They say I'm special, but that's the thing
I don't wanna be here longer
What's the point in lying when I know my teeth show?
I've been isolating, leaving people in the cold
Always mistake anxiety for love, it gets old, yeah
Never felt safe, no, I've never felt home
Walked inside your house, made sure I smelt smoke
'Cause my world on fire is all that I've ever known
How I view the world isn't right, girl, I know
I think I don't deserve you, ooh
Oo-ooh, ooh (Yeah)
Oo-ooh, ooh (Yeah, yeah)
Oo-ooh, ooh
I think I don't deserve you