Confession Video (MV)

Dear sister, I am sorry
It didn't have to be this way
It's me who is to blame
Never ever I wished for something so bad
Other than to know that you are not mad
At me for what I have done or haven't done or haven't done
Never ever I wished for something so bad
Other than to know that you are not mad
At me for what I have done or haven't done or haven't done
Oh God I wish you could give me a peaceful sign
I am crying and frightened when night closes the sky
I am scared of darkness, or scratches or just any sound
Though knowing for sure, from you no hurt is coming
Who knew that I would be scared of ghosts and the shadows
The torture of waiting a revenge when nothing's there
My parents have raised me with love and care
No helping though to what I bare
No words: I don't just believe in what everyone says
That I am not guilty at all - my soul protests
My pain and my fear are screaming aloud
You hear? My conscience and sorrow they do have a sound
Never ever I wished for something so bad
Other than to know that you are not mad
At me for what I have done or haven't done or haven't done
Never ever I wished for something so bad
Other than to know that you are not mad
At me for what I have done or haven't done or haven't done
I realize now a lot have been changed
Though some things are consistent and have their way
There is no going back now as time is like river
No chance to correct is what makes me shiver
I comprehend and know that blaming self is best
The more you hate yourself the lighter is your chest
Perhaps forgiveness is what I really need
But only from you should I had it received
Regrets is something that I did not think I had until I did
I sold your life back then for joy a tiny bit
Some say who knew that it would all turn out like that
But I would lie my intuition didn't warn me quite ahead
That said, I am on Earth, you are in Heaven
My dear little angel, my sweet girl
I know that you've forgiven me or didn't even blame at all
With fears of my own I've darkened up your image and pure soul
My fears and my guilts are all my own
I don't know what I am to do
But I was told that what I need is to just let go of you
To be precise: not happy times or memories of you but guilt
Horrific - you lost your life because of me
And all I need is, after all, to just let go, move on and self-forgive
Never ever I wished for something so bad
Other than to know that you are not mad
At me for what I have done or haven't done or haven't done
Never ever I wished for something so bad
Other than to know that you are not mad
At me for what I have done or haven't done or haven't done
Never ever I thought I'd be feeling this way
Having fear and guilt eating me away
Dear sister, I believe you're in Heaven, there should be no pain
You would've forgiven me, I'll try to do the same