TJZ - Catharsis Lyrics

My anxiety is getting really bad I need my medicine
Cause if I do not take it then I will not see the sun again
I made sure that my will and testament are written out
I know that I can't be saved and I don't even hate it now
I just want to feel ok
Like there's nothing in the way
One less reason I should stay
But I'm hating every day
Every day is just the same and I don't think that I can take it
If my suicide were helping you than why the f*ck you hate it

Yeah

I'm so worthless, don't know my purpose
So is it worth it to move on
I just want it all to end, I just want to make amends
But i can't do that to my friends, Take my medicine again
Murder suicide I'm gone
Cause if I end it all tomorrow will the people know my name
Will they take it up in vain
Will they stop and try to pray
No salvation in one day, Imma put my family first, Mom and Dad that's all I got
Aint nobody else with me
If I had a single wish I would take away the pain
Anxiety it clouds my brain
Like every single day
I don't open up to people because they turn around and tell
I don't care, you can send my straight to hell
Voices in my head, are telling me to kill myself
But I don't really care, Cause I just wanna feel myself
Put the gun to my head, pull the trigger
And I hope that I die
If I leave this earth I left you all a note
All the people that have seen the scars up on my wrist im sorry
Scars to the Bone
But That Shit wouldn't have happened if my homies hit my phone
I hope I never have to say
That I'm not feeling Ok
Everyday is an anxiety attack
I just don't know how to act
I wish someone would help me
Don't have nobody I am lonely
Put a smile on my face, guess I'm doing just fine, but I lied
Cause I'm bleeding inside
Broken no repair
When I stood up they took my chair
Got nobody that would care
I'm not letting people put me in a clinic
If you want me Imma bring it
Its my sanity I know
But we'll see how far I god
With This Mentality
That's been f*cking with me
I make myself bleed just to feel alive