S-Creazy - Contemplating Lyrics

Feels like i've been struggling with pain all my life
Got to a point 2 years ago I would cut myself with a knife
I'm okay now though but i'm still scarred
Tell me why livin life is so damn f*ckin hard
Just like everyone else I had people come and go
Got to a point where it became a show
Everytime a year goes by my mind it will grow
Never thought rappin would lead me to a pro
I'm sorry my past friends
That you had to deal and put up with me
But I was stressed as f*ck
Stressin to try and succeed you see
I wasn't makin great music back then
But fake niggas act like they knew me back then
Had a new look on the world since the age of ten
You've never knew me since i picked up that pen
Feel like i've been locked inside the devils den
Sadness and anger mixed emotions how i been
Started rappin mid 2016 without any flow
Who knew I would then go ahead and date a hoe
I'm just tryna do me hustlin on the low
Loved the times when I would play in the snow
Why do you hate If i just wake up and drink my coffee
Damn do i hate those inncorrect assumptions awfully
Make my music to cope with my lack of feelin jolly
Stopped givin a f*ck about shit I could pop a molly aye
Feels like i've been struggling with pain all my life
Got to a point 2 years ago I would cut myself with a knife
I'm okay now though but i'm still scarred
Tell me why livin life is so damn f*ckin hard
Just like everyone else I had people come and go
Got to a point where it became a show
Everytime a year goes by my mind it will grow
Never thought rappin would lead me to a pro