Rounding Third - At Your Trigger Lyrics

Could you enlighten me on what you meant by what you said?
Or did the blood rush to your head?

And how can I apologize to you for my mistakes?
If I'm no fault for what you blame
I'm tired of feeling like I'm at your trigger
Hoping it blows up in your face
And pity always gets me nowhere
So what am I supposed to do?
Done wishing I was different
I drudge for what I get

Hot and cold, vice versa sides
Try to fathom if you'd like
Compromise to ease the time
When I mold the words to whats on my mind
You're not too sure on what to say
Force a smile anyway
Protecting what you hide away
Do you say the things you need to say?

And how can I apologize to you for my mistakes?
If they keep resurfacing
Split your mind and I'll keep my distance
Draw me back if you feel the same
And if you finally see my side
We'll talk it out when the time is right
Misconstrue your intentions
Or are you upset all of the time?

And if I could be all the things that you want from me
Well then we'd finally see eye to eye with everything