Holding back everything I've felt
Excuse my language, but I'm f*cking overwhelmed
Peeling off, the plastic from the cigarette pack
I was hoping they might kill me fast
My arms fell down to my sides
It took me five years to give up and realize
I'll always be stuck in the shell of my former self
Not missing drugs, just missing how they felt
Giving up on everyone I've loved
Call me selfish, I just need some time to grow
Excuse the way I'll choose my words
I get it if you're angry, but I'm pretty sure I'll go
My arms fell down to my sides
It took me five years to give up and realize
I'll always be stuck in the shell of my former self
Not missing drugs, just missing how they felt
I know I'm never getting better