Religious Life - A Place in Me Lyrics

In the beautiful
I find a longing
To be whole again
But most days I'm
Caught by myself
I'm ashamed to feel
At all

But I wait to see how it is
In this life that repeats in me
I've tried to be only here
But I return to myself
As I always was

I no longer want to turn
From these thoughts that make me
Lose my breath
That take the quiet from my soul
They will be here always
Something within me
Something that speaks through me
Something that speaks

More than death
I am afraid of meaning nothing
I hope the spirituality
Of the young, white, educated
Is not all that there is
For this longing in me

I will no longer save myself
For a life where I finally am