Hate Myself Video (MV)

Three AM. Can't sleep. I been thinking about you. F*ckin sucks, man
Can someone please knock the f*cking phone
Out of my dumb hands, goddamn
I keep talking to her when
I know the power's in my hands
With every word you say, my mind examines it
I'm sad as shit
I usually never pray, I took a stab at it
A cavern is
Not as deep or dark as the hole my heart is right now
But it's way deeper than these lyrics, try to write I don't know how
Surface level metaphors from depressed Instagram accounts
Really speak to me
Take a peek at me
I'm crying on it
Here I go again
Talking to a girl that doesn't give a shit 'bout me
What she think of me?
Does she think of me?
It's a mystery
That shit's history
All I know is your ass don't be missing me
I know I promised we'd talk less
I feel that pain inside my chest
I told you I'd give it a rest
Don't wanna talk to you all summer, man
F*ck! I really don't wanna talk to you all summer. I'm sorry
Every time I talk to you I feel like shit (Feel like shit)
I keep coming back I can't get over it (Over it)
All my friends keep saying that I need some help (Need some help)
I think I love you because I hate myself (Hate myself)
Hate myself (Hate myself)
Hate myself (Hate myself)
I caught feelings for you cause I hate myself (Hate myself)
I hate myself (Hate myself)
I hate myself (Hate myself)
I think I love you because I hate myself (Hate myself)
I hate my mind, or I hate you
Do do, I'm in
Do do, to you
And I'm inclined to move right through
Do do, away
Do do, from you
Loathing loathing loathing
I just bathe in it, I can't breathe
I'm drowning in it, I can't see
Like a full bladder that can't pee
You f*ck me up, you know me
The new me, the old me
You borderline control me
You like me now? Then show me
Ah no you don't, I'm played again
I thought that we'd be more than friends
But now you want to make amends
I thought I knew how this one ends
You don't even need me
Got another man, you see me
Wanna be with you, I can't be
I change for you, I'm not me
I'm tryna be someone else
That scared the people that care about me
They told me shit, they gave me help
I didn't listen that hurt too deep
I get in this cycle of tortured emotions
I tear myself apart just to roll with your oceans
Blue, like my feelings
Should be happy, nah, I'm me again
Sad bitch up for duty
Can't be happy then I'll just pretend
I don't even like you, or do I? I dunno
I dunno, I dunno, I dunno, I dunno
Shit. Do I... Do I still like her? Nah, no way, f*ck
Every time I talk to you I feel like shit (Feel like shit)
I keep coming back, I can't get over it (Over it)
All my friends keep saying that I need some help (Need some help)
I think I love you because I hate myself (Hate myself)
Hate myself (Hate myself)
Hate myself (Hate myself)
I caught feelings for you cause I hate myself (Hate myself)
I hate myself (Hate myself)
I hate myself (Hate myself)
I think I love you because I hate myself (Hate myself)
I hate my mind, or I hate you
Do do, I'm in
Do do, to you
And I'm inclined to move right through
Do do, away
Do do, from you
I hate my mind, or I hate you
Do do, I'm in
Do do, to you
And I'm inclined to move right through
Do do, away
Do do, from you
Nah, you don't know
Ah, you don't know
You don't give a shit
Nah, you don't know
Nah, you don't know
You don't give a shit
Nah, you don't give a shit
You don't give a f*cking shit, ah!
I'll take my time, if you let me to
Do do, today
Do do, for you
If you don't mind, unless you love me too
I'll move myself
Away from you