Pining - It's Not Me, It's You Lyrics

I feel like throwing up
Every time I think of showing up
I can't believe
You believed in me
You're just a hole inside my chest that rotted out an trashed the rest
I'd be surprised if I still even breathe

I can't go on like this you know
I'm all gone, I'm all gone
I can't move on until you're destroyed
Am I wrong?
I'm always wrong

Well, I'm still waking up
And to my surprise, I had the guts
To face myself and what I thought would cripple me
I caught my breath
Puffed out my chest
Took a step
Brushed off the rest
Now you're just a hole in my memory

Now I can't go on with you around
You're all gone, you're all gone
Maybe I'll move on to something else
And I'd obsess
Expect nothing less
Than an end again