Trying to get into it with myself
Heart been fight with my own brain feel like i'm into it with myself
Ion even wanna live no more f*ck around do it to myself
Living in a dark place on my own feel like i can't go nowhere for help
Damn man
Shit way deeper then it seems
Why the f*ck they had to kill my big brudda he was only 17
Cry myself to sleep woke up still crying cause i seen my brudda in my dream
Hard body nigga with a big heart but i got a low self esteem
Yeah man
Shit got wild in them streets
F*ck up my head f*ck up my heart
I done lost my mind in them streets
Inside i'm crying for some help ain't nobody really listening to me
Traumatized seen death plenty times ion got no other shit to think
Damn god
What i gotta keep a gun for
Why i feel like imma loose my life every time a nigga walking out the door
Why you take everything i love away from me tell me i just wanna know
Why you ain't help my granddad live why the f*ck you let em die slow
Gotta do drugs when i be sober i be in my head
You don't love me now but i bet dey love me when i end up dead
If you ain't in my shoes then you will never understand
It's f*cked up I feel like my pistol is my closes friend
Ion know who to trust i feel like errybody my rival
Been through that war came out with scars all i know is survival
Even though i smile and joke around my thought be suicidal
My boy died 2017 and i'm still in denial
Mamma i'm sorry for that stress i put you through i'm selfish
Dey shot my friend right in the chest and left him laying helpless
Shit and bleeding out
Damn
I can't even imagine what my dog laying there thinking bout
Even when i with the crowed of people i still feel alone
Ain't got nobody da vent to that's why i run these songs
I got my Back against the wall chin up i'm standing strong
Just cause you feel you in the right don't mean i'm in the wrong
My heart can't take nomo
My shit been broke so many times that it cant break no more
So i just can't no more
My heart cant take nomo
My shit been broke so many times that it can't break nomo
So i just can't nomo