I've been feeling like I'm so far
From the man I want to be
I've been living like my hope's gone
Full of resentment
It's been messing with my brain
Everyone who I compare to
Is slowly driving me insane
Do they cry and bleed like I do?
Yeah it's toxic, I swear I'm not sick
I wish I could be happy for you
When you're winning, without feeling
Like you don't know what I'm going through
I've been feeling like I'm so far
From the man I want to be
I've been living like my hope's gone
Full of resentment, resentment for
Everyone with the life that I want
I hate how you make it look so easy
I've been feeling like a lost cause
You wouldn't get it, no you wouldn't get it
I get jealous of my friends
And I'm ashamed how well I pretend
When I just really want to see
Them do well, but not better than me
Yeah it's toxic, I swear I'm not sick
But I can't live like this anymore
I'm losing patience, I know I ain't shit
I'm just so God damn insecure
I've been feeling like I'm so far
From the man I want to be
I've been living like my hope's gone
Full of resentment, resentment for
Everyone with the life that I want
I hate how you make it look so easy
I've been feeling like a lost cause
You wouldn't get it, no you wouldn't get it