I have muffled the screams
Silenced the pain
What is it that I am constructing
A creature lonely and disturbed
I see it smiling in the dark
It can smell its master's demise
Its strength increasing
I created a monster capable of my own destruction
I satiated and enhanced its hunger
And now I have to keep myself hidden
My dreams have been infiltrated, sleeping isn't safe
I have flirted with sadness for too damn long
I am afraid to try
Genuine happiness
My willful f*cking ignorance
Don't seek out to find me
For if I am not completely lost yet, only I can find the way again
And if I dont, I am theirs now.