MEARA - 17 Lyrics

I made the vision boards with the clothes and the limousines
I thought my high school years would be just like the magazines
I sit in parking lots to forget what I'm driving towards
Then tie myself in knots trying to find what I do it for
Fake it 'til you make it, but you know you never will
I spent all my years daydreaming by the windowsill
The future's what you make of it, and I know that's the deal
But really who was going to tell me that the future wasn't real
I never needed a happy ending
I only wanted to feel like I'm okay
Whoever said it was fun to be seventeen
Was insane
Now I spend all my time on the rocks or the telephone
I stay up every night cause my time isn't mine alone
Jealous of everyone, isn't this just the teenage dream
I keep it all inside every day, 'til I wanna scream
Every day's a battle with the people on the screen
Sick of everybody saying I know what you mean
Bored of who I am but I hate everyone I'm not
And no, I don't know what I did but I'm afraid of getting caught
I've never had any expectations
When I was seven, I tried to run away
No freaking wonder I lost all my energy
And the game
I never needed a perfect story
I only wanted to keep the worst at bay
Whoever said it was fun to be seventeen
Was insane
I wanted polaroids and parties on the beach
I want a plastic crown that says that I'm a queen
Ah, I wanna be the one that people wanna be
I, I wanna be, I, I wanna be
It isn't fair, the things I never got to see
It isn't quite like to be young is to be free
Ah, It isn't possible, so who would wanna be
Who, would wanna be
Seventeen
Oh
It isn't even the fact that I'm seventeen anyway
I never needed a new beginning
I only wanted somewhere that I could stay
Whoever said it was fun to be seventeen
Was insane