I used to remember the day I released the news
I was very shocked to write in front of that disturbance man
I felt like everything was losing. If you're all that left and I had a gun
But if everything was over there, what would I do without you
I can't believe too, but I want to feel everything
Even if you leave, I don't see all the messages I tend to send
I have an end, I hope you see that. Just to make sure everything will be ok
And I hope you are ok, because soon after would be your birthday
For the first time I feel normal after the accident
For the first time I feel happy after the 7th of January
Today I read the message and I can't feel actually how I felt
When I read the first time I feel the ground opening
And that is not the worst, you weren't there to hold me
Even if in everything and well, I'm glad my parents weren't there
I never went to church, but I always believed
I hope one day you don't have to go through this again
And I don't know how you got it all to go so quickly
Do you need more love from me, or did you leave me different
But for me it does
I try to make the songs happy, because I try to hide the pain
And I always do this
And I can still remember the speed and the pain of January 7th again