Mainz - Trying Not to Talk Lyrics

Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah

Mad grinding for days, barely getting no sleep
Cause I stress over debt, I can't afford if it's cheap
And I'm living on loan, all you watching me bleed
I ain't getting no help, though I'm down to me knees
Bitches calling me names, never letting me be
It's like standing in goal, but I always concede
6 on 1, I just gave up my lead
Hope you get what's coming, and you get hit with speed
Talking down on my name, they all diss my believes
They all on my back, tryna get me to leave
Your ass keep talking shit like you know what I need
I only lose if I quit, got it tatted on my sleeve
Tryna push my out, send me back to my house
Give my mamma a hug, give a kiss to my spouse
Ask about my day, so I'm tryna get out,
I got so much f*cking shit you don't know about but i'm

Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah

I show up most days, I go home and i sob
I'm trying my best why you think I'm a slob
Send me in therapey wanna know what is up
I should tell you what's wrong, why should I do your f*cking job?
I make beats, tryna make my shit pop
I be selling them to, let me know if you cop
Perfecting the craft so I can be my own boss,
I got headphones on, bitch don't tell me to stop
But until I get poppin' I just gotta show up
They still sleeping on me, very few showing love
Gaining weight can't sleep cause I hate it so much
Lowkey cry on the bus, cause I still can't adjust
It's meant for you, but it's not for me
I play my own game, so support me or leave
I go my own way, in chase of my dreams
I don't want to talk, but just listen when i sing

Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah

I'm surrounded by fakes, I get 0 support
Tryna hold me down, like I'm accused in court
He just want money, before he abort
He a psycho at night, cause he always fall short
Moms been stressed cause the family is wack
Every day I'm afraid the mental home take her back
I'm by her side, but they turned their back
No one care for me, never get where im at
My bro feels alone it's a major concern
Don't go through it like me, cause its not your turn
I got your back till i'm gone in an urn
I teach you the tricks, you got so much to learn
I feel so alone and it's stressing my mind
Wifey got problems, how can she handle mine
The odds are against me but I stay in the fight
I don't wanna talk, just read what i write

Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah
Trying not to talk about it
Trying not to talk, trying not to talk yeah