Took the back roads back to my parent's house
Around 2 pm, the high school kids are getting out
But I don't know any of them now
Pass my old neighbors, give a wave, a bit half-hearted
Took a long and troubled road just to end up where I started
Here, alone
And Mom wants me to decorate the tree with all these things you gave to me
How can I tell her?
I used to think if I could fall asleep on this one night
I'd wake up to everything I need
The future was only a few hours from now
And something that I barely cared to see
I used to think forever meant with toys spread on the floor
But I don't believe in Santa anymore
You're the only person who could drive me mad
It felt a lot like fate if you believe in that
I did once, but I take it back
My sister said she found the perfect gift for you this year
How can I tell her?
I used to think if I could fall asleep on this one night
I'd wake up to everything I need
The future was only a few hours from now
And something that I barely cared to see
I used to see you as my soldier marching through the storm
But I don't believe in fables anymore
That icy twinkle in your eye
You took my blind faith for a ride
The crowns and castles you'd describe
But they were never built for me
Or lay in ashes at my feet
Forgive me if I don't believe
I used to think if I could fall asleep on this one night
I'd wake up to everything I need
The future was only a few hours from now
And something that I barely cared to see
I used to think you'd always be
The one I'm wishing for
But I don't believe in you anymore