Broken Halo Video (MV)

I love the way your eyes change color and light From deep beneath them dark brown hues
You can see a fire and it's smoldering bright I've become bequeathed to you
From best friend to thinking you're the love of my life
But it's no surprise you had enough of the lies

Cause I was told sometimes that even the most bold sunrise
Can make for the ugliest nights Looking back at my actions I can't even stomach
The sight I swear to f*cking god my mind wasn't functioning
Right But now I'm asking you to trust me despite

The drugs and the fights, the troubled advice I tried to give you all I had left but without you nothing is right
Underneath the cover at night I sing my praises
Like a young Romeo But Juliet never seemed so dangerous

But does it make me weak and shameful if I admit that after a few drinks it's easy to see how deep my anger is?

I'm no stranger to deceit and painfulness
Still I couldn't stand seeing my angel with broken wings
Plus we were loving so hopelessly

So I went and traded your halo for dopamine
Most don't see what they have until it's gone and with all I've lost you'd think that I know these things

I look at you now and I see a life I could have never imagined
Each day I've been carrying the stress of an addict
Trying not to depend on my habits
You gave me hope that I could live better than average

Instead of ending up dying in a casket

I wanted to make you mine but was it just lust?
Cause shit was getting hard to manage
Plus by that time the seeds of distrust were already gone and planted

They grew into the fruit of our demise
We made a mess of it like a pomegranate
I tried to remain calm and frantic
I didn't want to start to panic

But my heart's all damaged
And I feel like I just got slapped in the face with a palm of granite

In a world that shows no favors
How was I supposed to find the correct nomenclature?
To explain how I feel
It's like I'm on my own to save ya, and let's be real

I'd rather be alone to savor the memories of you I've grown to favor
Looking at pictures of us now
It's like I don't even know those strangers

Thinking back to when brushing the hair to your face used to be a known behavior
And how quickly we traded that for fights where I couldn't control my anger
That ship has sailed I'm still trying to throw the anchor
Just wishing I didn't fail
The world finally gave this boy his own Topanga

But I was living too close to danger And I suppose it made you feel as if your hopes got strangled

You gave me your all and I went and broke your halo
But now we know not to give an average Joe an angel