Jhendry - unlike me Lyrics

Yeah, they told me it's all up to me I guess I just couldn't see anything coming
I was down on my ass for a week and then I got up and turned nun to sum
I told that girl that I love her, it's making her cold
I don't know why she had to keep running
And I'm talking all day to the Lord, he sent me a dove
Said my angel's right up above me
I reminisce, but I know that it's never gonna heal me
I just keep on chasing this guap
I think about how I used to be taking the PV
The bus where I put niggas on
She was an angel, I know it, she make it look easy
She breaking my heart for the plot
Everything good, just got a pack for the season
I'm ready to pop out and shock
I been digesting these fluids I know shouldn't be in my body
Passed out on the block
I was just sitting on campus outside and It's cloudy I asked when the f*ck it's gon' stop
Niggas got cut
I used to hoop until I got to high school I thought I was tough
Shit'll get rough I been outside with them dogs, them niggas that trap
Them niggas that don't give a f*ck
No, you can't compare to me I know niggas been planning on blaming me
Gotta do this for me and my family
Keep going, they ain't Standing me
The city told me, don't forget me, I had to sit down talk with Debby
On a first name basis, with all of my teachers
They said I'm the one, tell that boy to get ready
Tell that boy to get off my feed
Sneak dissin all on the IG
But it's never the same when a nigga see me
Three bitches all wanna ride me
But I'm way too locked in the shit, TT
Wake up and make hits off the top, and repeat
Built a relationship, let it rot in the sea
A little nigga on top, what they dying to see
But they don't let me, yeah
And my heart heavy
Are you ready
If you not, little nigga, forget it
You niggas soft, you're just like Teddy
I said, let me have at it
And that's it, it's a bad habit
I can't let go of this shit just like I'm the QB ain't throwing no bad passes
I'm starting to feel like the heart of this shit I'm going way too hard on this bitch
If it was all up to me, when my nigga died I would've stopped all of that shit
But it's not, and I guess that these niggas forgot
Who that kid that done turned all the mud into carti diamonds right out of the block?
Nigga, it's me
That's it, it's all up to me
If you anxious, I know how I be
But you can't let the devil take over your thoughts
And sweep you right off of your feet
Yeah, I know that it's hard, but you know that God got a plan
My niggas still ride with that blam, they gotta stay armed
I gotta do this for my fam, I'm doing whatever I can, to get out the dark
And I was searching for light, but I didn't know it could reflect off the moon
To be honest, I ain't have a clue
I was sitting here looking at you
That shit killed my vibe and ruined my energy
But now I know what to do
I'm starting to think I grew up in this stu I forgot about my past, I ain't nothing like you
Too unlike me, yeah
Too much, too much, sauce I'm moving slimy
Like, who this nigga?
We do this nigga grimy
Sometimes I wish I could go back
I was hurting these niggas ain't know that
On alert, gotta watch if they throw that
It's a Thursday, it feel like a throwback
All my niggas outside where the hoes at
All them niggas on point, where the poles at?
Damn, good ass dome, where your throat at
F*ck, niggas my sons, we abort that
I been asking myself where my squad at
Been on the court all alone, but I ain't know where the ball at
Too unlike me, way too, way too, way too damn
Too unlike me, yeah
That lil' bitch is dirty, can't be my wife
No, you can't, all this ice got her froze up
Hundred times, run em' over