IAmGIZ - Letter To Myself (Freestyle) Lyrics

The biggest poison in us is regret
I think there are a lot of people that have dreams
And aspirations of things that they always wanted to do
But it wasn't the right time
Or they didn't have enough money or they didn't have enough experience
It's never the right time
You're never gonna have the right experience
And all of a sudden you wake up and you're seventy
And you're like, God, I wish I could have done it
It's what you don't do that screws with you later on
I get one shot at this life
This is it
I got my eyes wide open, more focused than I have ever been
I'm in a better place than I was the other day
I had to lose myself, now it's time to find my way
God broke me down, now I gotta go reshape
Ten-toed pivot, that's how I'm living
Breaking all the cycles and do it for my children
Fighting off demons, God damn it, an I'm winning
And the shit I'm cooking up got it hotter than Hell's Kitchen, Uhh!
No longer will I live in pain
It's time for me to free myself out this mental cage
And I will never be the same
Cause I done did some shit that I'm taking to the grave
Oh, I will never sell my soul, no
Walking down this long road, oh
Still gripping on my pole, oh, oh, oh
Mmmmm, still gripping on my pole
Still gripping on my pole, gripping on pole
Mmmm mmmmm mmmmmm!
I come alive in the nighttime
It's like the only time that I shine
It made me harder than a motherf*cker
Every single time that I cried, all I know is pain
So I try to stay sheltered from it
I ain't hurt yet, I guess I gained something from it
Grandma told me, I gotta stop running from it
Free yourself and try to learn something from it
I done been to hell and back way too many f*cking times
I'm all out of tears, guess it's time to wipe my eyes
Everyone I love always seems to leave or die
Reason I don't come around, I'm tired of saying bye
Who would ever thought life would be like this
So many times I cried, but I loved that bitch
Who would ever thought love would feel like this
Begging you for pain as I'm crying and shit
I'm on a search to find peace in a f*cked up world
But this ain't it for me, I'ma fight through the hurt
Prove everybody wrong who drug my name through the dirt
I had to leave a bitch to know my worth
I got hate in my heart with love on my mind
But that shit is hard to show when you're dying inside
If you're feeling what I'm feeling, then let's take a ride
Hit the henday 2am, smoke a blunt and just vibe
My words they paint pictures for the broken hearted
Hitting home runs cause home is where the heart is
Everything I do, I do for my sons and my daughters
And I finally found a way up out of the darkness, Uhh!