Hxy - So Dramatic Lyrics

How do you do it
The love that you growing
I'm jealous of everything if I don't show it
I'm out of writer's block, feelings are flowing
The water get colder, ain't dipping a toe in
Tryna pay back all the debts that I'm owing
I don't know why I write all of my love songs so that I run out of breath
Guess it's a part of me wanna be heard
Guess it's a part of me that wanna hurt
Too much of one sided kick to the curb
Make a mistake and my stomach gone turn
I know it's on me, the consequence earned
That don't mean that I'm not feeling the burn
I know you can't see my heart, but you would hear it
If you on my chest
Speeding home
You won't be at home
It's different now, I'm really alone
No use listening for ringtones
Making music, hope you sing songs
Acting tough with my bling on
Always saying they won't be long
I know that's the last of the texts
I don't lie anymore
Don't know why I used to too
I get lost in my head
Always forget what I'm supposed to do
Backspace what I'm typing
Not sure if I'm ready to lose
One more time again
Not really sure if I ever got better
Loving the winter I'm hating cold weather
I wanna pour out my soul into love
But I don't really trust myself enough
Don't wanna build something Imma f*ck up
Asking 'em all if I'm still good enough
Drinking until I swear I feel a touch
Happier people are punching my guts
I ain't a player these nights I'm too faded
But would it change anything much if I was?
I'm tired, tryna lay low
Nickel and dimed like a pay phone
Highway is my safe zone
Say they linking but they stay gone
Nice earrings but they fake stones
Zoloft eating a payroll
I'll be gone if you say so
I'll be gone if you say don't
I'm killing my own vibe
Can't invite me to my own place
Everybody I'm asking said
I need to give my space, space
How can I reply
When I still got some shit I need to say
Mix it up all night
Swear I'm gonna need a hearing aid
I wanna make it a point that I see
Everything f*cked up inside of old me
Tryna be tough so I cut up a tee
Sipping a juice, it should really be tea
Waving me bye while I'm going to sea
Still don't know if Imma grow up, we'll see
Breaking a promise I promised to keep
If there's no chance
I'm praying that one day this won't be my hand
Get tired of people that hate what I am
I can't keep up with these expectations that I'm 'posed to be perfect
I'm only a man
I'm only a man
Things that I want, can't be put in my hand
Am I a creep or a lover or friend
She dare to ask me how she look, she a ten
I don't have desire to know, I'm content
Don't let me know how you feel about me
I'll be perfectly fine chilling right by the fence
F*ck all this waiting
I'm so ready for my last one
Make me forget all the pains I had from the past ones
Swing the whip to clear my head and this a fast one
Give you everything you want but where's your passion
Always dipping out the blue, what f*cking happened
I'm scared of crashing
Got this pen on me I'm tapping
Get no answers, get more questions
Now don't tell me that you having feelings
Had too many girls say the words but don't feel it
I don't give my heart out, it's all of them stealing
They tryna check up, but don't mean it, "I'm chilling"
Y'all f*ck with my soul, I'm low in the spirit
She saying don't ghost me, she ghost me, its clearer
You hurt, so you hurt me, don't look in the mirror
You might see somebody you don't even recognize
So you sit and you stare 'til you fear it
The future the past
The shit that you want's, what you had
I know a little bit about that
I'm staying out late get a tab
I'll sleep in in my car, f*ck a cab
January was a crash
I still got birthday blues
Even though 7 months passed
How long do it last
Tryna repay my dues
It feel like I don't have cash