Hard to Be Human Being - Problematic Lyrics

Problematic shit that happened
Refuse to let it
Go on again
This is the end
I draw a line in the sand

You started this
You contradict
Every sentence you spit
So toxic I might vomit

You took a part - convict
Scarred by all images
Intent not within interest
For the jury knew what we did

F*cking up so much
Better - Bitter
Biting on my tongue
Savor the flavor
All I taste is the blood
The pressures just all too much

I feel undone
What have I become
Never thought I'd the one
Mess I couldn't clean up

Non-synchronous
Images have slid off the grid
Insolence in innocence
Love for lust so frivolous

No significance
You're my addiction
A cigarette - toxin so carcinogenic
Still I breathe you in

Nauseated
I f*cking hate this
Need to find my relief
Nothing can ease this feeling

Inside I've died
What's the sense in trying
There's no f*cking way to make it out alive

Cannot describe
Just doesn't feel so right
Despite the smile in psychotic eyes
There's still spite that resides

Delirium - I'm lost in lies
In need of a serum - cure for my own blackened mind
Thoughts caught in a loop
A noose - thinking of suicide

Myopic opinion
Misanthropic condition
Which one is it?
Mind and heart
Gone missing

Still I know there's a pain in my head and chest
Dead just won't seem to rest