If I feared
I'd fear it all
And if I lied
I'd say I never feared at all
Is it a dream state or reality?
The fact that I can see what's on my mind confuses me
Nothing short of miracles
Has brought me here exactly where I stand
Be it grace or be it torment
Sometimes what say the most
Are the things left unsaid
And I could choke on the words
That get tied around my tongue
Show me more
Something worth fighting for
Give me incentive to stay
In this god-forsaken unforgiving place
Calming my nerves with a cigarette and smile
Oh will it work?
They don't know the weight of what's beneath
Nor what's on my mind
Trying hard to not be seen
Fading back enough to disappear for a while
It's not the way I wanted it
But it's okay
I'll make a way
The bottom's not so bad
It could be the only place I get some rest
Tethered to my chest a ticking time bomb set to blow
Chaos underneath it all
And the scars begin to show
I can hear the stories they could tell
And feel the warmth of what once was cold
If I cried
I'd cry alone
If you somehow see
I'll say I'm still composed
Promise you
Sometimes my downfall is believing what I think
And it's a crime
Pretending everything is fine
Calming my nerves with a cigarette and smile
Oh will it work?
They don't know the weight of what's beneath
Nor what's on my mind
Trying hard to not be seen
Fading back enough to disappear for a while
It's not the way I wanted it
But it's okay
I'll make a way
The bottom's not so bad
It could be the only place I get some rest
If I feared
I'd fear it all
And if I lied
I'd say I never feared at all
Sometimes, what say the most
Are the things left unsaid
And I could choke on the words
That get tied around my tongue
Make me believe in something more than f*cking broke
Why am I left standing so from the hope?
No more shall I see the grace