Other Oceans Video (MV)

Dreamed last night i tried to hide you
From the man who claimed to own you
Somehow he would always find you
Couldn't stop him wailing on you

Tried to shield you with my body
But i'm just as soft as you are
Older, yeah, but i've been broken too
By those who claimed to love me

I remember you from somewhere
Worlds behind me, they still find me

And i was twelve years old the first time
Someone put his hands on me
Numb, confused, and cold, i watched him
In the mirror, far away

I didn't think of no so i said yes
I guess that's what i get
Sometimes the safest thing is to pretend
You wanted it

Drown it out in pills and liquor
Being sick just made me sicker
Watched my body sabotage me
Sink or swim here in the water

Do you remember which way is up
Do you remember which way is up
Do you remember which way is up

And i don't believe in safe spaces
I don't believe safety exists
I've had my mind battle my body
Got the tally marks to show it

Still, i wanna hold on to you
Bring you somewhere warm and say
I see you, i believe you
I can't tell you it will be okay

But you're welcome in my f*cked-up house
As long as you feel you belong
Can't promise you anything
But i can long for what you long for

Used to dream of other oceans
Full of fish who knew my colors
Thought i was just treading water
But i'm closer ten years later

Do you remember which way is up (Used to dream of)
Do you remember which way is up (Other oceans)
Do you remember which way is up (Full of fish who)
(Knew my colors)

And they tell you it gets better (Thought i)
And it's true for me, at least in some ways (Was just)
But i'm still afraid my friends will die (Treading)
I know i'll lose 'em someday (Water)

Can't tell you it's worth staying alive (But i'm)
'Cause i don't know your pain (Closer)
But i know mine and see it in you (Ten years)
I'll stay in this nightmare with you (Later)
Signaling from other oceans
If you swim i just might reach you