Why am I so slow
Letting the world
Come and take
All It want from me
Yo
But still I'm feeling great
I keep it hidden in my core
So you don't see it on my face
Not anymore
Love won't leave my lips
When momma say it to my face
Cause all I do is run away
Cause I can't deal with my mistakes
But how am I suppose to change
I don't know
So i'm blowing dodi in the air
Clouds of smoke
While I got rum inside my veins
Pour some more
Cause I don't wanna be scared
No not no more
When I'm dealing with these pains
Inside my core
When towards you I often aim
That's a shame
Why is it you I wanna blame
Shit I don't know
When you too
Dealing with strange
Energies of the day
I told my boss today
I'm no longer gonna slave
Six days out of my wake
There's other things
I wanna make
While debts I'm trying to get free from
Yo respect I'm gonna take
Or I'm a play at a different angle
So it's f*ck what you wanna say
I blocked the call so I can't answer
Then unblock yo number
But it's now three months later
And no body choose to answer
I've been my own danger
Creating my own anger
Making loved ones strangers
Stuck inside a manor
I'm good with faking manors
I'm okay with f*cking strangers
Paying for it too
Talking to myself
Like I don't like this side of you
Cause i'm thinking you should pay this dude
For everything I do
I don't think that's my mistake
Cause we all inside this place
Trying to find a way
While trying to act brave
Saying things I wanna say
But still not in yo face
I sketch it out so it sounds great
When you niggas showing hate
Just know I do not know yo pain
And this smile on my face
Means i'm starting to understand
I'm thirty two just becoming a man
And starting me a clan
While I just met a brother
Look towards him as a father
Having conversations at night
Figuring out ways up out this struggle
I was raised by some muggles
But shout out to my mother
Miscarriage took my brother
Feel i've been mistreating others
Then using treats and pleasures
To cover all my past
Trying recover my heart
And to know my part
In a maze in which i'm lost
But is this just my cost
To grow out of my flaws
And why so hard
I'm trying to floss
While all these niggas join the cause
Iamu so let's stay strong
Cause I can't tell right from wrong
I been f*cking like a dog
Lying bout trying to evolve
Telling everyone i'm god
But enough with the sad shit
Let's get to working
I wonder if my ex hoe
Still like twerking
I'm thinking I found my purpose
Cause I know i'm ahead of some niggas
And this for certain
With all the songs I made behind the curtain
At syco ink because I was nervous
The ink on my got a purpose
Just focus on yoself
And believe in all you do
This is iamu
C.rad.b with the speech
I'm not trying to meet and greet