life is a joke Video (MV)

I have never liked summer all that much
My brain is twisted and turned into mush
Will I ever be enough?
Or will I succumb to the dust?

Life is a game that I play, but I want to take it seriously
But I'm afraid if I make any mistakes
I'll fall off the tightrope I'm walking on
Life is a joke which makes me wish I croaked
It takes all the humor out of me
Life is strange in the way
Where I'll never know what's happening

They say"Take a hike, or go to the beach" (it'll be fun)"Wake up on time, or eat something green" (come on!)
I get that it's all in good fun
But that isn't gonna help me in the long run (I really wish it would)
They don't understand that I would if I could
(It's true I would, I swear I would)
They say It doesn't even take that much time
But it feels like I'm wasting my whole life (What?)
Making me wish that they were right

(Yeah right)

Life is a game that I play, but I want to take it seriously
But I'm afraid if I make any mistakes
I'll fall off the tightrope I'm walking on
Life is a joke and I'm not stoked
It took all the humor out of me
Life is strange in the way
Where I'll never know what's happening

And you don't even see how I rot behind closed doors
With self-neglect, and my room is always a mess
It seems like everything's fine, but I'm stuck wishing I died that one time
I want everything to be alright, but my brain shuts that down on sight
So, I'm stuck in a loop where I slowly deteriorate from the inside

So, life is a joke
Life is a joke
Life is a joke
Life is a joke