128 pills and a m1911 Video (MV)

(I must do it someway)
I've lost and it's such a shame
I'm lost man I'm so lame
Nobody even knows my name
I don't even care about fame
I just want someone to care
I just want someone to care
Why is life not f*cking fair?
The emotions I can hardly bear
I'm lost and I can't pay my fare
And I can't pay my fare
And I'm sitting here in my room
A hundred twenty-eight pills
And a gun to my face
I could do it but it'd be such a shame
Oh it'd be such a shame
And I hate you
Baby I made you
Was that how much I meant to you
What a fool I am to be played by you
'Was only a tool
And I'm such a fool
But let me tell you I love you
I must do it somеway
I'm not an artist but I'll shed my pain (for you)
I'm not a singer but I'm trying my babe (for you)
I still have your things I'm such a fool (for you)
And I know I was only a tool (for you)
But I want to provide for you
Yet I can't even give you food
I'm broke I'm alone
Alone I'm alone
I'm alone without you (you)