Contortion - under Lyrics

I felt myself go under
I felt myself sink
I felt this kind of wonder
The changes happened in a blink
I tried to just ignore it
But I can't help but overthink
I find it hard to trust anyone
Because the trust breaks me apart
I need to separate from everyone
So don't be sad when we depart
Cause I never f*cking wanted any of this
I'm tired of pretending I do
I wanted you to love it, the way I tried
I wanted to be understood by you
I felt myself go under
I felt myself sink
I felt this kind of wonder
The changes happened in a blink
I tried to bury deeper
My brain can't help but f*cking think
I find it hard to love anything
Because it just tears me apart
I need to separate from everyone
So don't be sad when we depart
Cause I never f*cking wanted any of this
I'm tired of pretending I do
I wanted you to love it, the way I tried
I wanted to be understood by you
Is it that hard?
Is it that hard?
Is it that hard?
Is it that hard?
Is it that hard?
Is it that hard to like something?
Is it that hard?
Cause I never f*cking wanted any of this
I'm tired of pretending I do
I wanted you to love it, the way I die
I wanted to be understood by you
But I never f*cking wanted to be like this
I know what I got myself into
I never f*cking wanted to be like this
I know what I got myself into