Confu$ion - When I Die Lyrics

I don't know what happens when you die
I'm just trying to get it while alive
Heaven won't you let me in
I have gambled everything
I can tell you how it's gonna end
I'll be counting millions in a bendz
I've let go of all my fear
I don't need a suvonyier
I don't know what happens when you die
Heaven won't you let me in
Heaven won't you let me in
I'm just trying to get it while alive
Heaven won't you let me in
Heaven won't you let me in
Nobody cares about me
I f*ck up we all do its just called life
Ya
But there are people who are supposed to be there for us
Those people are called family
These tears pourin down my face indicate failure
Obviously they can't help me get my happiness come back
I'm a theft I'm a criminal
I'm a no good washed up dead beat white kid trying to become the next rapper
I won't be great
I'm better off in a grave
I don't deserve anything
I don't deserve shit
I sit here while I speak to you staring at the scars on my wrists
I know I'm not the only one who lives like this
There are so many like me
Who have it worse
But I can't keep hiding my sadness all of the god damn time
It's not healthy yet I continue to do it
I don't know what happens when you die
I'm just trying to get it while alive
Heaven won't you let me in
I have gambled everything
I can tell you how it's gonna end
I'll be counting millions in a bendz
I've let go of all my fear
I don't need a suvonyier
I don't know what happens when you die
Heaven won't you let me in
Heaven won't you let me in
I'm just trying to get it while alive
Heaven won't you let me in
Heaven won't you let me in
My friends aren't here for me
They never were
I just want my life to be over
Ya I just wanna go
I can't handle all of the unknown
It's not fair
I don't give a shit about starting a motherf*ckin' cycle
That's all I'm good for
I'm only here to make everyone sad
I'm only here to make my friends depressed
I'm here to waste space
I can't pretend I am happy
I just can't
I just can't do the same old shit
I can't pretend to be happy in the life that I'm livin'
I can't pretend to be happy with my friends when my friends cause all of this f*cking sadness
They always make fun of me and never actually get what I'm going though
Nobody gets what I'm going through
It's so hard to be perfect when I can't be
What the f*ck happens when you die
I don't know what happens when you die
I'm just trying to get it while alive
Heaven won't you let me in
I have gambled everything
I can tell you how it's gonna end
I'll be counting millions in a bendz
I've let go of all my fear
I don't need a suvonyier
I don't know what happens when you die
Heaven won't you let me in
Heaven won't you let me in
I'm just trying to get it while I'm alive