Collin's Conscience - I Can't Hear You Lyrics

Mama, if I don't believe in god, will I see you?
When it's all said and done?
And Mama, no matter what I've become, can I truly say that I've never let you down?
Cause even with the door shut, if always love to see you
And even with the chords in my ears, nothing will match the sound of your voice
Cause everything special to us drives us up a wall
But I wouldn't trade it for anything
God, I can't hear you
I can't see you, and I can't even feel you there
I'm scared, I can't do this by myself
I know I'm not alone
But I know that they're not enough to save me
They're not enough to save me
It feels like I'm fighting everyday for my life
In a body and mind that I can't stand
My Heaven is being with those I love but still being to myself
I can only have one or the other, I can't survive without both
If I close my eyes I'll miss amazing things
Why is it so natural for us to leave the ones who helped us start?