Cole Cuso - Cherry Blossoms Lyrics

Sometimes I get lost inside my head
These thoughts intrusive
I can't seem to quit my damn addictions am I useless?
I don't even know myself it seems like i've been losing everything that I once thought that I had man, am I stupid? (no)
Maybe i'm not
But I know I got issues
Maintaining my mental health just isn't something i'm used to
I'm really trying to get better and not let stupid shit get to me
Ruthless and down to earth is all I really aim to be
This my temple
Building it by the column
Mental is falling down like Autumn
Gentle is not a word to describe me
Reinventing myself from the bottom
I'm not here for negativity and gossip
Talk to me if you want not a problem
I'm not gonna drop it if it's not awesome
Sweat and tears
And these flowers, they blossom
Some likes on IG and you think you're the shit
I make my raps precisely just to show them the kid
Feeling high and mighty
Never gonna go quit
Just know you're doing something righteous when it's tough to commit
I had to separate myself just to keep my head clear
That's when I captivate good health and everything that I fear
That's when my ego's on the shelf right beside my belongings
Had to reinvent myself and it will show by the year
I see clearly
All my emotions are mixed and I try to showcase them sincerely
These rappers fear me
I see about all of the work and their work can just never get near me
And when i'm rapping I spit to myself so I might as well end this line with a "Dear me"
Cole, don't fear me
Even though my human mind is so morbid it's so f*cking eerie, yeah

Had to take a break so now my voice is all f*cked up
It won't match the same as the last verse, but that's just how I wrote it
Man, i'm sick of all these imbeciles who acting so stuck up
I can't name a single friend of mine who's actually devoted
I'm drinking a potion
Starting to f*ck with the motion
Hold it
I think i'm muhf*ckin' goated
So lit
And it's a matter of time that I find the true meaning of music; emotion
Yeah, that's what it is
That's what it is right? (right?)
I don't know
I only make this music shit in the night
So when I go right back into this flow just know this is my passion
And it's more than rappin'
It's more than some lines on the paper
It's art and I love the fact that I can make it happen
It's more than just wearing a purse to a cypher and spitting some trash and then calling it fashion
I'm laughing because it's straight laughable that all you stupid ass cats will grip gats and talk action
I'm soft-spoken
I'm gonna build me until i've been broken
I was asleep
But I kept my eyes open
Burn like a bomb with a flaming explosion, I'm sure
Someone talking 'cause they'll never be me
Signals mixed up just like a martini
And I'm just gonna fly into the sky, though i'm not a genie
Yeah, my inspirations, they bleed right through
Every line I write is nothing new
I take Josh A and I mix it up
That's what all these artists do
And no, I'm not taking shots at you
This song has been overdue
I'm coming up out of the blue
Can't find my flow
But I will soon
I'm not gonna take a chance with singing the damn hook
My goal's to rap and rap and rap until they're all just shook
Life's a story I wish I could read everyone's book
It's only when I chase my dreams they give me weird ass looks
'Cause everyone's so miserable to be living, now
When I tell them I want to rap they say "You got to be kidding, now"
Can't think of any other way that I should be giving, now
This is my craft, this is my art
I'm on a whole 'nother mission, now