Cold War Everyday - Waking Hours Lyrics

Dear darkness
Dear weakness
I'm sick of seeing scars on my hands from beating my reflection
The blood hides my face and blurs my view of life
I've never felt so torn when I look in the mirror
The nights when I wake up
In tears from dreams that haunt me down
These broken fragments show my true self
Out of breath lack of strength
Never been this vacant before
I can't believe that I let myself break down
I'm not who I want to be
I'm sick of seeing scars on my hands from beating my reflection
The blood hides my face and blurs my view of life
I've never felt so torn when I look in the mirror
Grief is the bitter price of love
So I take a thousand needles to my heart
I sew my mouth and scratch out my eyes
This portrait is me but I can't f*cking realize
And if I make it through the night
I would pray a little more for falling asleep
Please stop this bleeding please stop this pain
Dear darkness can you keep a secret for me
I thought about doing away with myself
This is a nightmare
Eternal sleep
This quiet war of mine
I feign that I am fine
Too scared of loosing you
Despite what i've been through
But is this love if you leave
When I show you how I really am
My world would collapse of letting you know
That I still have to let you go
Scars are made to mend
But they tear me apart
And i can't wait
And i can't wait
For the end