Cold War Everyday - Unlovable Lyrics

I thought I'd feel safe between these autumn leaves
As the sun touched pale white skin
I'm living a dream without any care
Never mentioned what happened when the year passes by
And everything I've ever believed in
Craved from the cradle to the grave
I searched so hard for a light to keep
It disturbed my sleep
I've been waiting in vain for so long
Should we pretend should we lie again
Why does it feel so easy although everything is a mess
This depressing moment you gave me that smile
While we're standing watching the moon passing by
Did you feel it that way or was it based on a lie we both seem to live
And all these promises you haven't kept
Made me feel I took the wrong way long ago
Because you're unlovable
My rough old hands are shaking while I'm holding bleached old photographs
Which reminds me on better days that are not meant to be
I searched so hard for a light to keep
It disturbed my sleep
I've been waiting in vain for so long
Should we pretend should we lie again
Why does it feel so easy although everything is a mess
I've been waiting in vain for so long
Because you're unlovable
'Cause you're unlovable
I've been waiting in vain for so long
'Cause you're unlovable
You're unlovable