I Swear Video (MV)

Yuey on the beat

Please don't judge me
I swear ima good person
I swear im still learning
I swear that i changed
I only partly insane

Started overeating as comfort because of hungry nights
Parents used to always argue that's why i never wanna fight
If darkness is the evil then divorce felt like the light
Remember all the times we were robbed so i don't flex out of spite.
I also been robbed of alot of time
Cocaine is one hell of drug f*ck the rhyme
Addiction left us without a dime
I want back all the lost time
My Pawpaw died on the job and it wasn't even crime
Remember when we found out felt like the wind couldn't move the chimes
Got close to friend and he died to young
All these heros cant stay unsung
It feels like my life turning into dung
My filter broken so it's hard to hold my tounge
Why we always gotta struggle
World on cash so always needla hustle
Or we always got some medical trouble
Mentally bout to the break bubble

Please don't judge me
I swear ima good person
I swear im still learning
I swear that i changed
I only partly insane

Need a new game plan
Im breaking down im not the man
Anxiety 24/7 f*ck a zan
My spiritual balance is Rocky
I'm never confident enough to be cocky
Not shy but with life i don't want to talkie
Isn't that the only way to get it off my chest
The advice is half assed at best
Don't know half of it but they know the rest
Why yall asking so many questions this ain't a test
If your main intent wasn't always trying to judge
Then maybe just maybe i f*cking budge
At times it feels like god hates me
Even tho i love god where the return for me
Gives the strongest soilders the hardest battles
All this pain keeps making my brain rattle
Not sure how to cope
Sure as hell won't be hard dope
It made some people not there while they around
Not even talking bout them being mentally sound
Not mad at the dealer working 3 jobs and selling to feed his family
Every one was there friend untill there was accountability
Tired of people questioning my street roots
Grew up around hitmen just wanting loot
There was a lot drug attics in denial
These drugs lords had there disciples
There where cold killers and junkie prostitutes who do it with a smile
Gangs where around no affiliation but all they hung with us 4 a while
Saw the premath aftermath heard during a murder
I was in the car praying it wasnt dad thank it was a room over
Traumatized still remember the gun bang
That's why i blink at any loud thang
I never change the past
So these memories will last
I want to thank anybody who made it through this journey
I want to thank anyone who here for me

Please don't judge me
I swear ima good person
I swear im still learning
I swear that i changed
I only partly insane