Coastal Arcade - This Hell Lyrics

I don't trust myself
It's like I'm always creating my own little hell
Self help
So out of reach
It's beginning to eat me
I'm becoming a shell

I told you twice
I didn't want this to die
I know you felt it
As well
But because I try
Differently than you think
Is an acceptable
Way to prove my self

I'm lost in hell
Depression
A noise
Wasn't worth losing
You to myself

I swear I'm in hell
Miss you all the time
Different reasons in my mind
Why you can't tell
I want to wish you well

But I know if I take my time
I know I can press stop rewind
And do this right
Because I see the light
I know we won't fight

But right now I don't trust myself
For our mental health
I need to to what's right
Not giving up the fight

Not this time
Not like last time
I'm going to do this for myself
For your mental health

I'll see you in time because I know
Your love is the reason I find
Myself scared as hell

You need me all the time
I want to be there
But I can't find time to help

So I can't trust myself
I'm living hell
I know your love is worth the fight
Not just not this night
But every day of my life
Every day of my life

So I'm stuck in hell
I hope you can tell
I need to do this by myself
So I can show up, at a better time
To get out of this hell