CJ Jenny - Learn My Lesson Lyrics

All this pain that I endured when my momma died
That's the first time I ever seen my daddy cry
I told grandma that I got her everything is fine
Now every time I need to vent I look up in the sky

I kno you wit me every second so it's alright
My brother says he hates you but that shit a lie
I miss you more then ever so I stay up on my grind
You never let me down I can always say you tried

I wonder why why why why'd you have to leave
All this pain yeah it turned me straight into a g
I keep it moving keep it pushing never take a knee
My life was rough I made it thru it should've been me
Why did god have to take you
Yeah I'll never kno
Now I'm just a heartless broken angry lonely soul
I'm writing down my feelings but the pain don't ever show
When I lost my momma swear to god I hit the floor

A lot of shit been on my mind
I gotta stay collected
I kno one day that I'll meet you momma up in heaven
All this stressing got me out here really second guessin
I'm tired of praying for a blessing
Yeah this shit depressing
I wanna load the smith and Wesson
But I learned my lesson
Yeah Im coming your direction
Got no time for questions
I remember sitting in detention cuz I wouldn't listen
Now I'm missing your attention wishing You was closer distance
I remember when you choked me in the kitchen
Nah that wasn't your intention it was just your pill addiction
You could barely speak a sentence now your ashes in a pendant
Yeah I'm praying for forgiveness like I broke a f*cking tendon
I been feeling so offended cuz of everyone's decisions
Time to send it swear to god its time to really burn some bridges
It's like I'm going straight to war
I think I need some ammunition
Bgm I'm the captain yeah they kno I'm head lieutenant
When you told me that you loved me
Did you mean it Did you mean it
Since I said it now I see it
Momma I can guarantee it
Yeah I miss you more then ever plz believe it Please Believe it
Yeah you told me chase my dreams
Momma You the only reason only reason
I've been feeling so defeated
I been feeling so down
Momma you the only reason Only Reason
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
All this pain that I endured when my momma died
That's the first time I ever seen my daddy cry
I told grandma that I got her everything is fine
Now every time I need to vent I look up in the sky

I kno you wit me every second so it's alright
My brother says he hates you but that shit a lie
I miss you more then ever so I stay up on my grind
You never let me down I can always say you tried

I can always say you tried
I can always say you tried
You never let me down
Now you somewhere in the sky