How Can I? Video (MV)

How could I blame u for not seeing?
When I couldn't even see it in myself
When I said I mean it
And if I'm telling truth
The smokes still clearin
And my times subject to fearin
Often times it's when I'm riding thru the city
When My feels start to surface
And my eyes seem to start tearin
Had to let u go
But I wanted ya to know
In my eyes
You still glow
Yeah
I just wanna lay u down
U just wanna f*ck around
Poppin pills
Smoke billows down
And the joints pass around
Now a days something still feels missing
Sipping whiskey on a roof top
All the lights all the stars, they still glissin
Listen
It is stupid that u still cross my mind?
Am I crazy that I still think about hitting your line?
Is it crazy that it just wasn't our time?

I think not...

If this is what it takes
To get me out my shell
Then god damn it
I'll do it
Gotta do somethin to prove it, but
Gotta balance
Rather stay sane than loose it
Treat the music like a note pad
And fuse it
What happened to the old me
What happened to the Cody
That everybody knew
When erbody was a homie
No comment
Chose to take a different road
Now I feel like I'm somethin of an old acquaintance
Damn
That everyone occasionally looks over the fence
Waves hi like we never used to friends
Nah
I know what's in me
I know the greatness I hold
I know it's in me...
Right?
This is what u want right?
That's what everyone tries to make me confuse
Even got some family tryna give me the news
So F*ck em
I know the work I put in
I Gotta believe
Like we feel we bout to win
Cuttin water like a fin

Other wise what's the point?
Burn up faster then the end of a joint
Kinda pisses me off
When these f*ckin frat rappers
Shame the game
Just because they stole a beat, got some weed
Now they feel like their heat...
Bitch u didnt even engineer it, mix it, or even produce it...
Wtf u doin throwin up a tweet
Saying "while u sleep, we eat"
If u were real

You would move in silence
Get the f*ck up off your social media acting like u been about it
There ain't nothin real about ya
Put yourself out on a wimb
When holding on to everything you know
Feelin selfish cause u wanna gamble
For a different life that u have no clue
Has to offer
Have your girl stressin
Cause she thinks that one day u might leave her
When that pitchfork in the road comes
Damn, what a shame
What's this all for?
What's the outcome?
Only time will tell
But until then
I'll be workin till the night comes
Where I fall back in my head
Lost in ponder
People call but I rarely ever answer
Cause honestly
I really hate talkin
Really hate conversatin
Surrounded by the temptation of satin
And Tired of resisting
And I'm Tired of the shaming
And I'm tired of resent