Got together for the party
Stayed together for the kid
On the days that she behaves
I don't regret it not one bit
Freelance couldn't pay the rent
Not even in Redruth
Dom told us about the caravan
I'd read Walden in my youth
Audrey discovered the Milky Way
I discovered waterproofing tape
Her father works the festivals
I am widowed every May
Got a dog to feel safer
A little brother coming soon I'm sure
Five mouths can live on nothing
Just as well as four
Drive to Macdonald's every morning
To email off my proofs
Buy one coffee give Audes my phone
Then I feed her smuggled fruit
I always drive back past the old school
I can almost see her there
Still hiding in humanities
Black eyelids black stare
She never needed anyone
Except to get her stoned
She'd never have believed that we could get so used
To never being alone
In the autumn when Aude's dad comes home
I take my holiday
I walk the coastal path from dawn to dusk
Just the dog and me
We always camp across the harbour
From that creaky little attic room
Where for one evening's company
We dredged a lifetime's out of my gloom
I sit and watch the light retreating
Feel the waves pressing into the dark
We are swept into our futures Nick
As we are swept into the past
But it's the ones that have no anchor
That can't be trusted with the blue
Sometimes the thing that weighs you down
Is the thing
Is the thing
Is the thing
That lets you move