CHXRL - Scared Lyrics

I don't wanna let you down
But I'm so scared
All these complications
Inside my head

But I don't wanna lose 'em
I'm saving all my bruises
'Cause If I'm being honest
I don't know who I am without 'em

I'm terrified
Of boulevards and night skies
Don't know why
I don't know why

It cuts me like a razor
The lack of chemical behaviour
I don't wanna put myself right in your hands

Tell me that I'm wrong and I'm living all inside my head
Tell me that there's nothing I could say that'll
Scare you half to death

'Cause I don't want to be scared anymore, no
(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be scared)
(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be scared)
I don't want to be scared anymore, no
(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be scared)
(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be scared)

(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be scared)
(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be scared)
(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be scared)
(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be)

(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be scared)
(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be scared)
(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be scared)
(I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be)

I just want to fall in love
But I'm too scared
All these conversations
Inside my head

And I can't ignore them
Yeah, I'm bleeding for them
I'm picking apart my bones all by myself

And nobody wants love when they're not whole
'Cause I'm not worth it
Yeah, I don't deserve it

I'll push you further than I knew I could
And tell myself that I did something good