CHXRL - All This Pain Lyrics

What if all the things I see around me
Was fabricated bullshit in my mind?
I thought that I was someone to depend on
But most days I can't even tell you why

And I could write a thousand stupid love songs
And never tell the girl that it's for her
I guess that I'm just trapped inside my heart
But sometimes I just wish it didn't hurt

'Cause I can't take all this pain anymore
I see myself drinking till I hit the floor
Yeah, I can't take all this pain and all the force
Man, I'm so tired of waking up and popping pills

But tell me are you someone I would want to keep around?
You always told me
Slow down, it's better to be safe and sound, yeah
But I don't want to live my life that way
I just want to make my own mistakes
So tell me are you
Someone I would want to keep around?

What if all the people that surround me
Decided I just wasn't worth the time?
I wish that I could tell myself I'm fine
But deep down it never goes
It's etched into my bones

Maybe I'm just one of a kind?
Maybe there's no changing my mind?
No, no, no, no

'Cause I can't take all this pain anymore (Oh, I can't take it)
I see myself drinking till I hit the floor
Yeah, I can't take all this pain and all the force (I can't take it)
Man, I'm so tired of waking up and popping pills
Yeah, I can't take no more
No one
No more