Chxnge - Skyfall Lyrics

I'ma let the sky fall
Die here in my fast life for a story
I'ma go starve myself fighting
Victim to no guts no glory
Find that I love sighing, trying
Beating till my fists are gory
Mama's asking why I do this
All I can tell her's I'm sorry
Your boy is an addict
Don't care bout what's lavish
Throw money in lava to make me a savage
Maybe it's all of the things that my dad did
He came up from nothing
While carrying some baggage
Maybe I'll manage
I don't really know if this started my end
Least I know it ain't boring
I pack onto it, guess I'm building a snowman
Keep the tape rolling
This is what I been on lately
Ain't nobody here that could fade me
Look at all the damage I'm making
I been throwing myself in the pits with the dogs waiting
If you tryna break me
Go face the hurt I'm facing
And boy I been aching
Stopped taking my pills just to make a damn statement
I can take the pain
Show them I ain't playing
Then waking one day with no chance but escaping
Begging I hold on so tightly
So none of my demons don't cross me
While I be losing myself in all that I'm learning
Don't anymore know anything for certain
It hurts like a bitch
See both sides like Chanel
I'm lost in oceans
And I did all of this
I flipped to the channel and got myself woven
I'ma let the sky fall
Die here in my fast life for a story
I'ma go starve myself fighting
Victim to no guts no glory
Find that I love sighing, trying
Beating till my fists are gory
Mama's asking why I do this
All I can tell her's I'm sorry
Your boy is an addict
Don't care bout what's lavish
Throw money in lava to make me a savage
Maybe it's all of the things that my dad did
He came up from nothing
While carrying some baggage
Maybe I'll manage
I don't really know if this started my end
Least I know it ain't boring
I pack onto it, guess I'm building a snowman
Keep the tape rolling
You done tried to tell me what to feel like
Ain't nobody here but the real type
Hold the steering wheel still on your gaslights
Bitch I barely stop for red lights
These past nights I been making choices
Without looking in hindsight
Left my ex for my concert
I'm just tryna fly Concord
I ain't felt you were on board
So I quit it like abort
And that's funny that I say it
Because I was so stuck in
Not speaking what I'm thinking
I been making changes to what I am
My old teachers would never understand
Caz I was an A, B student
Coulda went AP if I wanted to do it
Now I'm making self-destructive improvements
Beautiful ruins