Chxnge - Killing Thoughts Lyrics

Saw her in my dream
She done see the best me
While I balance on this beam
Part of me is like that
And that makes me wanna scream
I'm not bout the f*cking cream
But it helps me blow off steam
But it helps to suppress me
Will I take you back?
I doubt it
We got way too many conflicts
I got way too many problems
Need a bitch that will fit in my pocket
But not in the right one with my wallet
Dopamine telling me she flawless
Thank god I can keep it quiet
When I'm not lying down unconscious
I said
I want her back
But I ain't say it
My subconscious did
I could blame it on that
Took all the blame
Man f*ck that
Launched into combat
I don't know if it'll come back
Caz I'm
Haunted by what I could've been
I get stuck holding onto whims
Think about all the things I missed
Why I did all the things I did
Don't know to which side I should give in
I been living too long in the mid
Losing myself to the wind
Blurring up the man beneath the skin
Daunted by all my f*cking sins
Bottled up sin just like some gin
I watch my moves caz the room spins
Hold my emotions so they can't pin
Too paranoid to let out a grin
I got drive but I hide my VIN
Keep shit away from even my kins
This is how I need to live
This is how I need to live
This is how I need to live
This is how I need to live
This not how I'm supposed to live
Lotta secrets
And they do too
And I'm paranoid
But I put my shit up on YouTube
So I'm vulnerable
Get exposed there
But let's talk about
The parts of me with no fresh air
Never let em out I wish I can
Talk like it's a drought I'm spitting sand
Dry inside my mouth
Won't understand
But I understand that my ships are jammed
Unmanned by my crew
Only got a few
Caz it's hard to connect
When you reject polarities of you
Of me
Of me
I shouldn't be living my life like this
I shouldn't be living my life like this
I shouldn't be living my life like this
I shouldn't be living my life like this
Caz I'm
Haunted by what I could've been
I get stuck holding onto whims
Think about all the things I missed
Why I did all the things I did
Don't know to which side I should give in
I been living too long in the mid
Losing myself to the wind
Blurring up the man beneath the skin
Daunted by all my f*cking sins
Bottled up sin just like some gin
I watch my moves caz the room spins
Hold my emotions so they can't pin
Too paranoid to let out a grin
I got drive but I hide my VIN
Keep shit away from even my kins
This is how I need to live