Chuckklez - Plague of Sadness Lyrics

It's like a constant circle everyday around my life
No matter what I try to fix it seems that things won't be alright
I got a million f*cking problems which has labeled me as a mental case
Since the day I've touched the booze they've lead me falling from Heaven's grace!
Landing me in an uncertain world where everything is full of sorrow
And the pain that stands before me turns my psyche into hollow
Wishing it will go away so I can get through another week
Without the bullshit riding beside it, laughing as I'm growing weak!
F*cking fed up with these issues I keep remembering from the past
When my best friend suddenly died I knew I was heading towards a relapse!
Thinking about some ways where I could finally end it all
And hopefully find a f*cking purpose that will lift me from this fall
But in order to complete my wish I have to sign the dotted line
So that the Devil can take my soul and let it rot beneath the fire!
You can tell that the plague is near when the tears come down the sky
As I start to f*cking choose rather if I wanna die!
I wish there was something in this world that will help me try to ease my pain
Looking in the mirror at my reflection, I can't even stand the sight of me!
Overwhelmed with so much stress and the hatred starts to take its toll
In every f*cking inch of what's left of my soul to the point I've finally realized I've lost control!
When I look into the mirror just to see my own reflection
The Reaper is lurking right behind me with a sinister expression!
I'm ready to take some action as I'm loading up the f*cking glock
Pressed it against my temple as I'm staring towards the clock!
Overwhelmed from paranoia I couldn't bare the stress
As my knees are starting to buckle and my face was soaked in sweat!
But not only was I scared it was just the thought of the aftermath
And what the chances are will be if I chose to walk this path
Since the day I've chose this music shit I've sacrificed so many things
That I thought it was for the greater good, but lead me with broken wings
Losing friends from left to right, my family wished I was dead
For not having the perfect son that they were wishing they had!
Heartbroken with depression f*cking fed up with this world
How can something be so beautiful, can be awfully f*cking cruel!
So this is my final chapter before I pull this goddamn trigger
And what leads me towards the afterlife could hopefully be much better!
I wish there was something in this world that will help me try to ease my pain
Looking in the mirror at my reflection, I can't even stand the sight of me!
Overwhelmed with so much stress and the hatred starts to take its toll
In every f*cking inch of what's left of my soul to the point I've finally realized I've lost control!