Christian Billman - The Addict and the Actress (I Don't Wanna Live a Lie) Lyrics

You were sitting alone with a laptop and headphones
You locked the door dimmed the screen shut the windows
She told you things you believed self-esteem grows
But then it was over she lied and your heart died

If only you knew who you really are

She turned off the screen cried her eyes out to sleep
And you were alone, if you're fine only God knows
And you thought of dread and the things you had done
Nobody should know in your dreams how you ran

I don't wanna live a lie

And you fell asleep what a loser a fake
But you'd do again if it meant you could feel alive
And you never knew I was calling and praying
That voice wasn't me condemning your fate

(I don't wanna live a lie)
Its time to wake up its time to wake up
(I don't wanna live a lie)
I don't really wanna live this way
(I don't wanna live a lie)
It's time to wake up its time to wake up
(I don't wanna live a lie)
I've forgotten who I really am

And she was beaten to death cause she didn't perform right
Nobody knew she was all they knew was her stage name
Her mother and father, they cried out to God
That he would give them a sign, take away all the pain

The beasts in the night oh they kept up her videos
Thought it would make them money where she was nobody knows
Nobody honoured her death cause the beasts how they fooled em
All it made was a scared up heart