Chemical X - Illusion of Hope Lyrics

Goddamnit, I woke up again
Time to crawl out of bed, let the nightmare begin
Thoughts of death are hard to ignore
When every single day is worse than the day before

Happiness does not exist, an illusion of hope inside my mind
Happiness does not exist, it is something that I will never find

Outta control, my life's a total wreck
Another day older, falling further into debt
I'm in a state of desolation
Completely paranoid, I cant trust anyone

So this is all I get?
Broken dreams and life full of constant shit
Hating every minute staring at the clock
Anxiety building up, about to f*cking pop
Waiting till my body turns cold and my heartbeat finally stops