Chelan - Anxious Lyrics

Yeah, got a lot on my mind lately, I don't even know what I'm doing
I don't really see a point, but everybody tells me to keep going
So f*ck it, I'ma keep going
Four am still awake, laying in my bed thinking what's my next move and is this my fate

For many months I've been struggling, feeling out of place. I sit up once again
Turn to the left just to sip my drink. It ain't water, I'm sipping the liquor
To wallow in pity and swiftly I feel numb soon after I swallow
My homies ask if I'm okay, they see it in my face. I ask them simply if it's time that I can borrow

Feeling like I'm running out of time. I know it's crazy to say that from someone with a life
That's been as short as mine. I wanna do something crazy just for the hell of it
Twnty-seven club round the corner, it want my membership. Seeing people in their 20s live and they'll
Remember it. Stories to tell their children after they all settled, man

It sort of feels like life is leaving me behind. I try to keep it off of my mind
Stay on the grind, but I'm anxious. I think I should be grateful and just
Stop giving a f*ck, but I'm anxious. Wanna break free of this box that I've
Been feeling like I'm stuck in, but I'm anxious. Is it me I put a lot on myself

Maybe I'm lucky, still I'm anxious. I'm anxious
My sister told me change my mindset and I should listen. But all these thoughts that circle my
Head turn to a prison. I thank the Lord I haven't died yet, so it's my mission to use the rest of
All my time left to make decisions that are true to me. Really owe it to my family after all they

Do for me. I've been taking things for granted, kinda like I usually do. I'm stuck focusing on
How she really used to be too. Enough hoping for that girl she'd just be using me, boo
It's rough, but I'ma keep on trying to find my place in this life because I only got one
So no matter the strife, I'm taking hits and coming for more. All in the hopes of finding

A cure, but rest assured I'm still anxious. I'ma weather every storm, I gotta plan for what's in
Store, but I'm anxious. Maybe I feel a little better with some money in my drawer, man I'm anxious
I'm tired and I'm sore, but I'm coming back for more, still I'm anxious. I'm anxious
What

That wasn't so bad, I guess. I just gotta believe in myself sometimes
After all, how are y'all gonna believe in me if I don't believe in myself
How are y'all gonna love me if I don't love myself? I'm still working on that, I know
I guess I'm just a little anxious. Yeah