Charlie From Earlier - Emo as a buzzword Lyrics

I was desperate enough to accept my flaws
Because I just wanted to be happy
I never got to grow up I had my innocence taken away from me
And so I turned to drugs I turned to forcing all my friends to turn away from me
And now I'm sitting next to my boyfriend
And when he tells me he loves me
I feel guilty
I feel guilty for feeling like I need to get high again

But I'm not sick
Enough of myself to make emotional music
Cause I'm just pissed
Off at the world and how I've always been treated
Ever since I was kid
Cause nobody's wanted me until I was 15
I've never wanted anybody to want me
I always wanted to feel like a queen but Instead I always feel like a junky
When my parents ask me if I took any pills from the medicine cabinet and they know I couldn't have
I've spent all day sleeping

I never cut my wrists I always cut my feet
And I was shitting bricks in the bath trying to cover up the bleeding
I never thought that I deserved it, but I sure as hell didn't deserve any of this
And It hurts way more to live than it does to cut myself
I haven't looked at sex the same since
I woke up in a bed with a stranger and no pants on
And everybody's always saying how great it is
I guess I'll never get to feel too great about it

But I'm not sick
Enough of myself to make emotional music
Cause I'm just pissed
Off at the world and how I've always been treated
Ever since I was kid
Cause nobody's wanted me until I was 15
I've never wanted anybody to want me
I always wanted to feel like a queen but Instead I always feel like a junky
When my parents ask me if I took any pills from the medicine cabinet and they know I couldn't have
I've spent all day sleeping
I've spent all day sleeping
I've spent all day sleeping