Chapel Garden - The Gift of Guilt Lyrics

Well the gift of guilt has got me down
I probably f*cked around enough to learn and grow
But oh no, wouldn't you know? I found another ho
I swore I sold her soul, I guess I tore the home
That's where they say the heart is
And wouldn't you know I found the hardest part is
Tryna get my partner's body rockin', sock 'em, shock 'em
Train her brain, obey
Drink and suck and f*ck and party

I know I got a problem, it ain't no game
Can't refrain from callin' names, tellin' main
That she nothin' by her lonesome - f*ck
She used to glow but now she doesn't
She got the nuts to rise above it - look
Look she gave her f*cking name for love and now she's
Getting nothing from it, baby tell me somethin'
Are we too far gone, or can we stop it?

Cuz you were lyin', and I was buyin'
You said you'd try it, you can't deny it
You left me hangin' by a thread back when you said
You loved me then it stopped, I felt like I was
Dyin' in the f*ckin' gutter
I'll never love another motherf*cker
And if I tried to die tonight for you
Would you be true and tell 'em what I meant to you
And all my dudes

Cuz I've been livin' and learnin'
And earnin' to earnest all that I'm deservin'
I'm yearnin' for learnin' and burnin'
The surface, the furnace, the circus
The surface is cold, and yet I'm bold
Asking for lovin' and mining for gold
To love and to hold

Your love in life is all I hold
Forever baby that's my goal
Doin' life together till we're old
Kick the shoes and let's smoke a bowl, yeah