An old fisherman in Fukuoka, gave me a ride on his small fishing boat
Took me to Eulsukdo in South Korea
All through our trip, I was cursed with nightmares of Ponzo
His death
The fate of the disappeared children
Images of dismembered dogs
Bloody snouts and enormous teeth
Growling
Sea creatures
Endless barking noises inside my head filled my sleepless nights
The old man remained quiet
Not a single word for days
He sat still for hours
Caught a fish here and there which he would share with me
I had no appetite
The boat's motor would often stop and remain idle for hours
Until the old man was able to get it starting again
I tried to make conversation
He would just look at me and resume his exercise of silence
Desperately needed to see other people
Have a conversation
The old man was too zen for my liking
And I had no distraction from my thoughts
His name was Jõ
Little did I know that years later
I would finally come to understand his silence
And the influence it had over me, over and over again
Without me knowing it