Celestia Quixs - The Subtle Art Lyrics

Already knew at the age of 5
That death would be better than this
I leaned over the edge
Drawn to the beauty of air
Dad pulled me back

I was 9 when
I was reminded
The only true peace
Is found in the void

Contemplating my own mortality
From reality I'd rather avoid
And it's only gone downhill from there
With the lies, betrayal, and the pain

For me
Since the age of 14
Would rise time and again
Suicidality

Now I am dead
And just waiting for death
My final betrayer
It is my own body
It is still fighting for breath

This is an Ode to Mark Manson
His book title includes a curse
I have a different perspective
Cuz I lived life in reverse