Celestia Quixs - Complex Trauma Slam Lyrics

My lyrics are just the tip of the iceberg
For full details go read my memoirs
Or pay a visit to my website

Now let's get this shit started

Joy is just a first or middle name in my fam'ly tree
It's never really been an experience allowed for me
Mom literally told me
I don't need you being happy around here
Dad said This is my number one daughter
I've seen better heads on a glass of beer

I love you; but I don't like you
Mom told six-year old me
And I became the punch-line
For Dad's social anxiety
My siblings and my cousins
And all extended family
They called me the black sheep
And blamed everything they could on me

I was only three-years old when told of suicide
In very graphic detail-a child parentified
Emotion support toddler on which my mom relied
That's called emotional incest--
A boundary-cross into abuse
I was perpetually distressed

I love you; but I don't like you
Mom told six-year old me
And I became the punch-line
For Dad's social anxiety
My siblings and my cousins
And all extended family
They called me the black sheep
And blamed everything they could on me

Was set up from a young age
My relationships to fail
And there are others just like me
Who sometimes wind up in jail
Narcissistic mothers
Cause their children untold harm
To live life in survival mode--
A state of high alarm

I love you; but I don't like you
Mom told six-year old me
And I became the punch-line
For Dad's social anxiety
My siblings and my cousins
And all extended family
They called me the black sheep
And blamed everything they could on me

All I ever wanted was to be loved
But all I got was this stupid CPTSD shit